30 is that magic number you always talk about in high school and college. Typically starting with: "By the time I'm 30 I want to..." or "By the time I'm 30 I will be..." Mine was always: "By the time I'm 30 I want to be married and be a mom". Well surprise past me! You are married and soon-to-be mom of two. Of course I am incredibly happy with the way my life has unfolded in the past 30 years, but what I don't think past me realized is how much richer and fulfilling my life would be at this point. Back then, getting married and having kids was all I thought about; as if I would self combust if that didn't happen. Well news flash! It's not the end all, be all. Don't get me wrong, I love my husband and I am OBSESSED with my kids but, I have learned there is more to life than being just a wife and mom. If you would have told 20 year old Sarah that 30 year old Sarah would be running a successful business alongside her best friend (which she hadn't even met by then), I would have thought she was crazy. And yet, here I am.
In the last decade, I have learned to love, dream, mess up, start fresh, and grow fiercer than ever before. I have stepped out of my comfort zone, stepped back in, and taken a leap of faith I never thought I would take. I have learned to listen to my inner voice and trust it. I have learned to be wrong (like SUPER wrong) and understand that's ok. I have learned in order to love my family fiercely, I have to also love myself in every shape and form.
At 30, I thought I would know it all. Its that quintessential age where young me thought everything would be figured out. Turns out, I'm very much still learning and still figuring things out. I may not know it all, but I sure as hell have learned a lot in my first 30 years. Let's hope the next 30 are just as rewarding!